So I just wrote this long post, and dummy me not knowing how to blog very well, put it in the wrong folder and accidentally deleted it all. So here we go again.
I started this blog a while back for class and said to myself that I was going to keep it up and make sort of a “diary” for myself. But of course that didn’t happen because I was swamped with my last semester of classes in college. But now, since graduation is only 2 weeks away, I don’t have much of an excuse anymore. Maybe it won’t be a complete diary, because that might just be a little too creepy, but at least I can post my work and a thought here or there.
Graduation…something I have been looking forward to for a long time, almost 4.5 years. And now that it is finally here, I’m scared. Why do I get so emotional everytime I think of it? Am I ready? Am I prepared? Is there anything else I can do to brace myself for what is coming in the near future? I have definitely had a few freak out moments in the past few days. Yesterday was my last day of classes ever, unless I decide to go to grad school or take some classes here or there for fun. It all came so quick. The one thing I was waiting for is here now. And I don’t know what to think.
So the job hunt begins. The big one, the REAL one. As I’m looking I wonder, what would I be happy doing? Working in a gallery? A frame shop? An office? I definitely know I want to do something creative. What would be the point if it wasn’t? I chose to major in photography because I love it and will love doing it for the rest of my life. People can always take pictures, no matter what, and I plan to. Even though I don’t plan to work for 10 years and then have kids and go right back to work as soon as they are old enough, in these few years of my new life before I plan to start a family, I want to do something I will enjoy. I want to enjoy going to work, look forward to it. And then when the time comes to have a family and to watch them grow up, laugh at all their funny moments, and be so happy to see them happy, I will continue to take pictures, of them, of our family, of our life and hang them all around us in our home. I look forward to having kids, a part of me can’t wait, even though I know it’s not time now, I have to get married first! But all in good time. I just need to sit back and enjoy all the changes and make the right decisions. Because there are so many changes that are going to be happening soon, big ones at that…graduation, being engaged, finding my first REAL job, and possibly moving out for the first time. Am I ready?